I’m guest posting at Tamed Cynic today.
Find the whole post here: The Dark Lord’s Insights On Prayer
I walked in and the receptionist greeted me. I didn’t catch her name, one of many sisters who call the convent home.
After a brief wait, another nun came to get me. This spiritual director came highly recommended.
She walked me to the end of a very long hallway and invited me to a seat by the window. She even gave me the chair with a view of the pond and fountain. Generous of her, she is a nun after all.
“I’ll light a candle to remind us of the presence of the Spirit.” Great, I like candles.
Then she read a passage of Scripture. Truth be told, I don’t remember which passage.
My mind was racing. What would she ask? How would she relate? Could she solve my spiritual problem in one session?
After the reading and a brief prayer, she looked up and smiled, “So, tell me about yourself.”
Uh, ok, sure. Fit my whole life (more pressing, my call story) into a 45 minute session and then you tell me something about it?
She waited patiently as I gathered my thoughts.
I tried to give her the high points: background, college, married, divinity school, ordination track in the United Methodist Church, work for a spiritual formation institute.
And then we got into the question that had brought me here in the first place. When we prayed at the beginning she had asked for a word to pray for.
“Clarity” was the best I could come up with.
Clarity about my call. The ordination process has been anything but beautiful, sure there have been glimpses of beauty, but it’s been a slog for the most part.
After some recent developments, I’ve been wondering what this call on my life is all about.
Does it have to be lived out as an elder in the UMC? What about Christian unity and all that? Why not just become Catholic?
Those are the high points, I won’t bore you with the details.
As I laid out the situation and my desire for clarity to this sweet old sister, I was more than half-hoping she’d reply, “Come home, son, to the true church. Leave behind your failing Protestant trappings. All will be well.”